Into the Unknown

The statue in the picture above is about courage.  Those four men, students at the time, stepped into the unknown and stood up for what they believed in by sitting at a Woolworth's lunch counter.  The men were African American.   Their actions brought about the end of segregation.  That lunch counter sits in the Smithsonian.  That Woolworth's is here in Greensboro, NC.  

And today, their courage inspires me.  My journey may not change the world, but it is changing my life.

I’ve always had a plan.  Always.  Well, except for maybe after college graduation, but then I was 22.  

My friends tease me about having back up plans for my back up plans…

 But today, I turned in my two weeks notice at my job.  My job that I loved.  That I put in ten years of my life to get.  But the workplace was toxic.  Okay.  And I had a personality clash with my boss.   So I had two choices: I could resign or I would be fired.  Resigning was the slightly better choice.  Slightly.

I have no prospects lined up.   I have slightly less than three months savings in my bank.  I have $30,000+ of student loan debt.  My family…I don’t want to go there yet.  I’m young, I have bankable skills…but I feel like I’m falling without a safety net.

Today was my first experience in trusting the unknown.  I’ve always prepared for the worst because I expected the worst.   Today, I start to learn that the universe has options for me, even though I can’t see them right now.  Today, I plant the seed of hope that my life will be okay, that I will be okay, even though I don’t know what’s next.

I have my fabulous, amazing friends to thank.  My family…well, I haven’t gone there yet.   My friends are my safety net.  Emotionally, physically, and for right now, financially.  Thank you to my awesome, generous, fantastic friends.  A, J, M, and F.  Thank you.  I could say it in every language known to humankind and I still wouldn’t have the words to express my depth of gratitude.